Don’t Make Me laugh
Anil Shahi, 2012
Acrylic on canvas
62 × 175 cm each (set of 10)
© Sangeeeta Thapa
My series of works hold up a mirror to society and to
the fake smiles of clown-like, delusional souls.
Drawing on the iconic images and narratives of
Hindu mythology, my paintings depict the character
of those who seek their shadow in the moonlight.
One character, for example, poses like Muhammad
Ali, another one rips open his chest like the Hindu
god Hanuman to reveal a three-eyed joker with a
halo.
Occasionally, a sense of wonder overtakes me when
listening to news of developments and other exciting
advances in the field of politics, whether of the
promise of a glorious future, or the hope of a comfortable
lifestyle. A glimmer of hope grows within me,
filling me with a sense of renewed vigour. In reality,
these are only fleeting moments – a distant, optimistic
dream.
My dreams hover a while before flying away like an
unexpected gust of wind. And yet the same dreams
recur over and again until fading into the distance.
Our open wounds never heal because we pick at
them. We scrape off the scabs so often that distinction
between pain and painlessness can no longer be
felt. Thus, we forget the very existence of our
wounds. Silent and numbed we stare at each other,
and smile.
My canvases narrate the stories of those numb and
lost souls around us. Souls forced to be the clowns of
their own making, bound to put on a permanent
show, no matter the cost. I have portrayed those
souls who have learned to bow down to a hollow and
counterfeit play of emotions, and who laugh their
well-rehearsed laugh while taking a path of darkness
others have foisted upon them.